A Females Perspective With Rehab
Ten years ago, I never could have imagined myself going to rehab. I was never a wild kid; my friends actually made fun of me for being so straight laced. I did a little bit of drinking at college, but I never took things too far. I liked being in control, and I knew that drugs and alcohol would take control away from me.
However, all that changed after I was in a terrible car accident. It was a traumatic experience for me, and it was hard for me to feel like I had any control over my life after that. I was also dealing with some serious chronic pain.
To treat the pain, my doctor prescribed prescription painkillers. They solved the problem, but they may have worked a little too well. When I took the painkillers, I wasn’t stressed and terrified about the state of my life anymore. I was able to relax and enjoy myself. I wanted to keep feeling that way for as long as I could.
When my prescription ran out, I started to look into other options. I found a new way to get the kinds of opiates I wanted. Before long, I had a full-blown addiction.
I started doing anything I could to get my hands on pills. I engaged in behavior that I am ashamed of. Eventually, this behavior started to stand out to my family and friends.
When people first started to confront me about my addiction, I tried to deny everything. I think some people believed me, at least at first. Because I had always been seen as “the good girl,” it was hard for them to picture me as a drug addict. I look nothing like the celebs on my home page
Eventually, however, I had to admit that I had a serious problem. Thankfully, there were still people that were willing to help me get into rehab so that I could get back on track.
Once I had decided that I wanted to get rehab, I had to find a place to get rehab. I didn’t know where I should look for something like this. I didn’t know if there were facilities that treated people like me.
I swallowed my pride and told my doctor about my problem. He wasn’t judgmental at all, and he provided me with the names of a few facilities in my area.
After talking with my mom, we decided that we should tour the facilities in person. Because I was not well during that time, she wound up looking at the facilities for me. She set up a few meetings and came back to me with information.
We decided on a facility that was about an hour away from home. We picked this facility for several different reasons. First, this facility treated opiate addiction, which was what I was dealing with. Second, the facility offered treatment for withdrawal symptoms and therapy. I knew I needed help with both aspects of addiction. Lastly, the facility would let my friends and family members be a part of my treatment.
Once we had decided on a facility, I had to pack my bags and get ready to go.
My family drove me to rehab, which is something I really appreciated. I was still scared of cars after my accident, and I liked being around people that supported me.
They checked me in and left me behind. I was really scared at first, but I felt a lot better when I saw how caring the staff was. Most of the staff was female, which made me feel more comfortable. I wanted to be around other women at this difficult time.
I was shocked at how sick I felt once I really started to withdraw from the pills I took. I knew I would feel sick, but I didn’t expect it to be as bad as it was. I was so grateful to be around medical staff who could take care of me during this time.
The symptoms were the worst in the first few days, but I still felt ill and weak after that. I was glad to be an environment where I could spend most of my time relaxing.
A huge part of rehab was therapy, which I really needed. I don’t think I would have become addicted to pills in the first place if I had sought out therapy later on. It was nice to be surrounded my people that had gone through the same things I had. I knew it was a judgement-free zone.
While I regret a lot of my past choices, I know that there is nothing I can do to change them. Drug rehab gave me the ability to move past those choices and make better choices in the future. Now, I feel confident that I will be able to keep living a sober life.